Saturday, December 26, 2015


Spent my Christmas afternoon buying gifts and baking stuff at the mall, alone. I went in to a bookstore straight to the Christian section and this book caught my attention. I was hesitant to buy given that I still have a lot pending books to read but scanning through some of the pages, I thought this is beautiful and I will need it.

See, I have been through a lot this 2015. I've felt really hopeless until God reminded me of the great hope I have in Him. And in this time of recovery from depression, some people struggling to find hope again went to me unexpectedly. Slowly my desire to be a vessel of hope to others who experience what I did and what I still do deepens.

I feel indescribable joy to help lift others up and point them back to the source of Hope. I know in my heart that God calls me to be a "Hopelifter". And so I pray that with God's help, I will be. And I also hope that this book will somehow equip the hopelifter part of me.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 ESV: Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

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Saturday, December 12, 2015

Redeem My Heart

[originally written on 6/07/2014]

© mariakathdm

Redeem my heart, oh Lord
Sanctify it, make it pure
Redeem my heart that was
once and for all blessed by Your unfailing love
Redeem my heart that is now broken and torn
Redeem my heart that is beaten up
and worn out by the thorns of this world
So many times I have carelessly
given it away, I did not obey
'Til it's left shattered
like a fallen jar of clay
Scattered down in pieces,
scarred by it's tragic past
Redeem my heart, oh, God
Let it no longer yearn to look back
Make it better than it ever was
Let You be the one it'll completely trust
For all this life can bring is nothing but burden
and fear and longing and
dissatisfaction and failures and pain
But only You can bring wholeness to my being
So fill my emptied cup once again
I sincerely ask
Restore my hurt soul and my spirit
that is wounded and crushed
My everloving Savior, my only hope
From all these troubles I cry out
Come nearer and redeem my heart

This poem was written in the season of my life when I desperately need God's redemption of my heart. I was broken during those times and still struggling for complete healing. It did took over a year for me to recover and even up until this very moment, it's still under restoration but I can say that there is a huge difference between my heart's condition then and now. And truly I can say that my Redeemer heard my pleading and prayer.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Closed Doors

I believe God intentionally closes doors to protect us from thieves, and intruders that harm our hearts. I am grateful for that fact. Trust God, they say. Okay. So when He closed one, I put myself to trusting Him.

But despite that, times still came when I was trying to bang it while the other hand holds tightly to the handle hoping that He will open it as I plead. I lost all the strength I had but God still kept the door locked. I felt so bad and sad and disappointed until I had no choice but to let go and walk away from that door.

As I took steps away, I've realized that we do not really trust God if we're still camping on the other side of the door hoping He will change His mind. He won't. Otherwise, our hearts will be up for danger and disaster. So when a door was shut in front of your face, you need to turn around and walk far from it. Farther than you think you can get. Let go of the handle. And don't attempt to bang it. Trusting God fully means letting go of what He wants us to, completely.
After all, He doesn't close doors for nothing. It is always for our good.